Updates and THE Appointment!

Talk about a hectic couple of weeks! I've been busy, busy, busy, and May has absolutely FLOWN by. Josh had a work conference in San Antonio a couple of weeks ago, so I decided to tag along. It was a blast! It's absolutely beautiful there, but I would NOT want to live there under any circumstances. Being from Tennessee, I'm pretty used to hot and humid. Texas was a whole different kind of hot and humid though. I seriously took 2-3 showers a day! We did some cool stuff - saw the Alamo, went to some antique shops, enjoyed dueling pianos at the famous Pat O'Briens, and took a tour on the Riverwalk.

We were in town a week, then the following weekend (which was this last Friday-Sunday) we went to Fall Creek Falls with Josh's family. I've never been before, but it was breathtaking! My sister-in-law and father-in-law got some really great pictures, and once I get copies, I'll post some. We were able to row out to the middle of a lake and fish, hike down to some beautiful waterfalls, and actually slide down some little waterfalls and swim around in the pool underneath. It was a great way to relax, and get my mind off of today.

Yep, that's right. Today was THE appointment! Originally, we were supposed to have our first RE appointment last Monday, but I had to postpone due to it being the wrong time in my cycle. The appointment was okay...just okay. We got there, and immediately they gave us armbands with our names/birthdates. These were checked by each person that saw us. The receptionist explained that every time either of us comes in, we will get a bracelet to wear. I know it's silly, but I thought it was really kinda cool, haha. Then we got ushered back to a little conference room, and the nurse came and got me to do all of my vitals. She took my blood pressure and asked if I was nervous. I told her my heart felt like it was going to explode, and she said it wasn't uncommon, and agreed to take it at the end of the appointment, haha. So I went back into the room with Josh, and then in came Dr.Stonewall. That's not actually his name, but that's what I am calling him, because of his complete lack of emotion or emotional support. You know how some people just click. Well, me and this doctor did not click....at all. I never once had a moment where I felt at ease with him. He was going over my history, and when we got into some very personal, and embarrassing questions, even despite my turning bright red, he never once said anything comforting. He sat there, without even cracking a smile, and just stared as if it was no big deal. And I know it wasn't a big deal to him, but it was a very big deal to me. It's taken me years (literally) to make this appointment, and for him to not show any type of acknowledgement to that really turned me off right away. Needless to say, I was so uncomfortable after the questioning, that I almost turned down the physical exam. I kept my cool though, and after the questioning, they took us into an exam room and did what I assume is the standard exam. I got a pelvic exam and then a ultrasound to look at my ovaries and uterus. He did do a really good job of explaining to us what he was looking at as he was looking at it, which I appreciated. He did say one interesting thing. For a long time, I've thought I haven't been ovulating based on BBT charts and OPKs, but he said he could see some good eggs, and he thought that I probably had been ovulating. He wants me to do an HSG in the next couple of weeks to make sure that both tubes are open. After the exam was over and I got dressed, we went back into the room and he went over some information about next steps. He said he would recommend injectables since we've already done the Clomid thing. It'll be a couple of cycles before we start anything though, since there is some other stuff they want to test for and get out of the way. We've waited 4 years though, so a few more months won't kill us.

Even though he seemed optimistic about getting us pregnant, I cried the entire way home. I dislike him SO much. I'm sortof in a bad position though, because they are really the only close fertility center. I could request to see another doctor in the practice, but I'm scared to be labeled the "difficult" patient, and then potentially treated differently. I know his success rates are good, so I may just tough it out. We shall see....