Time to Reflect

This last week has provided me some much needed time to reflect on our fertility adventure. I'm actually feeling quite a bit better about everything. I talked to Josh about the doctor, and how much I disliked him, but surprisingly, Josh thought he was fine. When I think about it - his personality seems very much like Josh's personality - analytical, straight-forward, detail oriented - so that is probably why they clicked. The thing is, Josh isn't really like that with me (I could never live with that ALL the time...) as much as he is with his work, but we were seeing Dr.Stonewall at his work, which would obviously be the time that part of his personality came into play. If this was my normal OB/GYN, and I knew that the "click" piece was important, I would absolutely look for someone else. But it's not. I won't be going to him for the rest of my life, only a few months to a couple of years max. I know he has a good track record, so I've just decided to deal with him. I still do hope that he was having a bad day, and that in our next visit he is not so much of an insensitive jerk, but even if he is, I doubt we'll change anything - especially since Josh likes him. I think it would be a different story if neither of us felt comfortable there.

I'm more excited than ever to get everything started, but unfortunately there is some waiting. They would like for me to schedule my HSG between days 5-11 of my cycle. Last month was a mess, and I really didn't know if I had a really short cycle before, or if I was just having some in-between spotting. I decided just in case to wait until my next cycle, at which point I'll know for sure where I'm at. I've also got to schedule some bloodwork at some point, too. Even after that, I'll still have to wait an entire cycle to start anything (provided the results of those come back the way they want...) so it's looking like it's going to be August/September before we really get going. I know this is premature - but I'm so worried that I'll have to go through another holiday season without a pregnancy announcement. It's hard year round, but Thanksgiving and Christmas are especially tough on me - I think they are tough on my family, too. My parents are very in the loop with what's going on, and I think they tend to be as hopeful as me, so I know they can't wait to start buying stuff for another grandbaby.

I'm really excited about this weekend - I'm having a much needed girls night on Friday with my cousins. We try to do one every few months, but this year has been busy for everyone, so we haven't had one yet. It'll be fun to watch a chick flick and talk about what's been going on!! I'm really looking forward to some fun and relaxation! :-)